~HEROES~

2011-06-15T23:20:00.002+08:00

Hi earth. I am finally back to blog. Well, nobody cares anyway. So yes, if I am not wrong, the last post was in sec 4? I am in jc1 now. Yeah, yes I know. Thoughts dont have to remind me. Anyway, I am feeling rather stress recently. This kind of pressing yet slow, immense stress. Why? Cause my jc1 MYCT is in 11 days time and guess what? I am left with a lot of revision to do. Is it just me or everyone hasnt finish their revision. Well, that doesnt matter to me cause I am the one taking my own exams. My dream, DENTIST. Why am I losing hope? Why am I losing focus? I dont want this life. This mundane routine. I dont want to retain. I want to have good passes. But why? Why cant I bring myself to work hard? I feel so upset and disappointed with myself. This is not me. But I have become like this, lazy, distracted and what more? At this time? I dont want to be like this! I need motivation! I need some love! I need some care! I need a person who really understands me! I need to get back on track. I hate this feeling but I am starting to hate myself. But no! I dont want to hate myself. I hate having millions of thoughts running in my mind. I hate having war with myself! ARGHHHHHHH! I think I am going insane. Chill, cool. Ice packs. Lets settle down and calm down please yun yi please. I need you to be focus! I need you to make full use of your 11 days! I need you to be back. COME BACK! I know its hard but please do come back. You can pull through this. You can do it! jia you. youcan youcan youcan youcan youcan!

bio:biological molecules, enzymes, cell structures, cell membrane, cell divison, dna and genomics, protein synthesis

chem: mole, atomic structure, chemical bonding, gaseous state, chemical energetics

math: standard curves, inequalities, function, binomial, apgp,series and sequence, math induction, diferentiation

econ:green shit

gp: education, media, environment

2010-06-17T00:38:00.000+08:00

To be honest, I have really become a nerd. A REAL BIG TIME NERD. Holiday is seriously a trap. The only place I have stepped foot in is :

1. LIBRARY
2. SCHOOL
3. HOME

No shopping, no movie. NOTHING! I want to do something else!

I WANT TO BREAK FREE!

2010-05-12T20:01:00.002+08:00

Hi! I am back to revive my blog! Well, I guess all my loyal readers got tired of waiting, so left with me and myself! Anyway, I really didn't have the time to use the computer lately, computer became my not so close friend anymore. But, that's a good thing isn't it?

So Mid Year FINALLY ended after three long weeks. I shall just close my eyes and sleep. HIBERNATE(: Actually, I am really bored. oh well, that's all. Bye guys. Or perhaps, just me!

2010-04-20T22:10:00.004+08:00

Hi. It has been a long time since I log in to post. I feel extremely unusual now. Not that I am upset or what. It's just pure happiness. Today is my birthday. As people grow older, birthday seems to be not quite a big deal anymore. Its just a day telling you that you grow 1 year older. However, today I got enlightened by my junior. He said I should be happy for today, not because of the surface reason, but for celebrating for my mum for giving birth to me. Despite all the birthday wishes people said to me, I was rather gloomy. I felt really exhausted in class and the weather was just making everything worst.

School ended at 6 plus for me. In addition, I still had to stay back in school to do some notice board thing. Isaac Mung walked home with me after that and I told him I was actually not really happy on my birthday. He was really funny though, he said that there was something poking him in his bag. He took out the present and gave it to me. That was really...yeah. Then, I dragged my heavy footsteps back home. It is a mundane thing. I reach the house, see my sister, have a little conversation and I will go back to my to put down my bag. Just as I was about to step into my room to put down that stupid rock bag, I saw ghostly figures and that familiar song flew. "Happy Birthday to you....."

I was extremely shock and didn't know how to react. Should I laugh or what? In the end, tears just gathered in my eyes and I smiled at them. I wasn't having any anticipation for a birthday surprise. Knowing that exams are round the corner, I can totally understand even if they didn't do anything. I made my wish, wished that everyone score well in O levels and blew the candles. Laughter filled the room and we had a little K box in the house. We took photos too, to capture this moment of happiness.

What they've planned really made a change in my mood. It was the first birthday surprise that I had. Thanks girls and SM for making an effort to chose the present. I love you all. Friends forever and ever. Oh, not forgetting "Roger" for storing time.

Thank you guys! Today was awesome(:

2010-03-31T23:02:00.004+08:00

THIS IS MY FAVOURITE VIDEO.

2010-03-20T23:34:00.002+08:00

Why is it so hard?

Haven't I tried hard enough?

You just don't understand.

Where is all the results?

How did it turn into such a terrible stage?

Yesterday was a waste.

What is faith? What is determination?

Have I come to the right place?

You just don't fit in.

Where is my soul?

Happy or pretending?

Yet to find out the answer.

I am a worn-out piece of metal.

2010-03-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

Hi. Its March Holiday. I plan to lock myself at home.

2010-03-05T22:35:00.002+08:00

Ohmygod, I feel so lame here. Because I didn't update my blog! Well, nevermind. Just a speed update here to anyone out there.

Taiwan=FUN!
School=Tests.
Holiday=next next week(:
Today=lunch-ed with prisy and sharon ki(:+ the movie.

Cant help to say this, but people! Please be happy like me! (this is esp. to the pigzhen)

2010-02-14T02:08:00.000+08:00

Hey people!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

I am going to TAIWAN SOON!(:

2010-02-12T22:20:00.002+08:00

HI, TODAY IS A FRIDAY.

MEETING ISAACMUNG IN THE MORNING WAS SO FUNNY.

CELEBRATION WAS ( INSERT WORD )

I AM HUNGRY RIGHT NOW!

I HAVENT EAT MY DINNER/SUPPER!

MY HOUSE IS SO QUIET!

1MORE DAY TO TAI WAN!

I HAVENT PACK!

MY MUM IS GONNA NAG AT ME SOON!

I ATTEMPTED TO DO THE HOMEWORK.

I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DO IT.

I AM SO FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW!

ANYWAY, BYE!(:

2010-02-08T22:00:00.002+08:00

I had a Hilarious Morning today.

The "story" of my special week 6 of the year, week 2 of Feb.

Back at home, I had this premonition that I don't have my tie in my bag, but well I don't bother to check. I reached school and found out that, " Crap! I really lost my tie!" I was shouting, " Oh no. I lost my tie. (X10)" Then, I went to sit at the steps and I said to Rachel T, " How? I lost my tie." Rachel T replied," You want me to lend you my tie or not?" Then Miss Eleora came and I told her the same thing. I saw Rachel D and I shouted her name cause I thought my tie might be with her. Then as I called out her name some small little voices said, " Its with Rachel T you noob!" And then, right at the same moment, Rachel T and I said, " My tie is with you!(me) Oh yah! Your tie is with me!(Rachel T)" So she ran to her bag and took my tie. Miss Eleora stood there and laughed at us.

The End.

How funny right? HAHAHAHA!

2010-01-30T23:44:00.002+08:00

Yes, it has been two weeks since I posted anything to update you guys, but I doubt anyone reads my diary. Oh well, this week is the last week of January, pretty zoom-ing right? Anyway, school was hectic. Friends have been awesome. Tests and homework were just...you know what. I am still relieve that I am alive, able to take a breathe and I hope this engine wont burn off before it is supposed to.

And Oh-My-God! I cant wait for TAIWAN! That would be a small break for myself before I start off again. It will be so exciting.

Anyway, I still hope everyone is happy despite all the problems we're having now. Just...stay positive.

2010-01-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

Oh my god! Week 2 of Jan just passed like a "BOOM!" I was pretty occupied this week, which is a good thing. I feel accomplished everyday, each new day just makes me so happy. Anyway, let's talk about my Rotten Friday.

1. I made a stupid mistake for Emath assessment.

2. I was punished by Mr Kang to say"WTH" for 60 times to the wall. (HAHA.)

3. I didn't flip the Amath pop quiz paper and I missed out one freaking question which I know how to do.

4. I missed the Eclipse and I need to wait for another 6 years to see it! Damn!

However, despite all these "misfortune", I still went around haunting people with my voice. Its indeed a rotten and happy Friday.

I want to feel the POWER! Here I come, 10!

P.S I make happy posts. Please read!

2010-01-04T20:46:00.002+08:00

First day of school was ohmygod, a bomb. I thought everything would run smoothly but things didn't turn out to be like that. It was quite messy, I bet the sec1s didn't have fun at all. AT ALL. I hope tomorrow will be better, since its all the running around. Sometimes, I really think that I am not good enough, all this leading and planning. Gosh, I am seriously tired.

First day of school NOT being like a sec4, didn't go to my class at all. I still cant believe that I am in sec4 already. 3 years just passed in the blink of an eye. Looking at the sec1s reminded me of how I looked like 3 years ago.

Time keeps running, it don't wait, it don't stop.

2009-12-31T20:49:00.005+08:00

Hey everybody! Its new year's eve today! Well, the sec 4Es just came back from our Bintan trip and no doubt to say, IT WAS AWESOME! The TLs were just super! Anyway, I shall not do much blogging abut that cause words cant really describe how I felt, there are just too much to say about this camp, I will remember it for life.

Alright, so today I am here to do some reflection of the whole 2009.

To me, it had been a really tough year. The beginning of the year was just ohmygod, there weren't so much As on my result slip anymore and maybe some friends problem. However, I made it through and now all of these things are on track. Not forgetting about the biggest thing that happened to me was that, I became the president of the Student Council Board. I never expect myself will do such a thing, leading others and planning events for the school to make the school a better place.

This position, this responsibility, have never been so easy. Sometimes, I really struggled and felt stressed. I have always been wondering, am I really fit to do this? Can I balance my studies and this commitment? All these have been swirling inside my head till now. I have always been asking myself that why am I in this, why I have to take up such a big responsibility when I am only 15, what if I did not join the SC when I was in sec1, but I guess not anymore. All the whys and what ifs are unless to think about, life has to move on and come to think of that, I am at advantage. I may not be at my best and some may also think that hey, you're not doing your job but I just want to say that I love my Ex-cos for how they always support me when I felt really lost and how they always say yes and didn't utter a word when I give them a job to be done. Also, small encouragements like"You guys are doing great!"from my teachers also push me a lot, that's why I never give up and I found my balance.

My new year's resolution for next year.

1.GET A RAW 10 FOR MY Os.

2.Bring my SC to the next level.

3.Pass down our position to the juniors properly.

But for now, I just hope that the sec 1 orientation is gonna run smoothly and the sec1s will never ever forget their experiences.

There are some people that I really want to thank also.

Mr Hu and Miss Eleora: thanks for always trusting me.

Miss Uma: I LOVE YOU!

Mr Issac Tan: Thanks for guiding me when I really need some guidance. I LOVE YOU!

Sharon: No matter how much cold wars we had before, I still love you always. Go Sharonny(:

Yifanny: I don't know why, but this year we got closer. Thanks for always being so direct, I love XIAOFANNY!

Rachel T SM: You have always been someone that I can trust, someone I can talk to. I will always love you SM.

PrisY: BOBLA! You know what, just four words. I LOVE YOU FOR-AIR-VA!

PrisC: Don't be so emo already alright? Haha, love you always!

My Fish: Thanks for comforting me when I felt really down and also letting me to so lesbian to you. Haha. I love you always library partner!

Soonguan: My brother! Thanks for listening to me when I really need a pairs of ears.

Gareth: Hey bestfriend! We've been through a lot didn't we? But no matter what had happened, you are always the only one who understands me. Thanks.

Syaz and Dass: My hyper friends! Thanks for supporting me when I really need the drive. I always love you guys.

Saacmon: Hey! You know what, you have really been a nice friend, nice ex-cos and thanks for not getting irritated with me.

Xavier: XL! I really don't know what to say, but you know what. You helped me a lot and sometime I cant imagine how am I gonna complete the job without you. Thanks!

Minny and Book: left-right hands. Thanks guys!

Rachelle and Michelle: You guys have really been helping me a lot. Thanks!

Last but not least. My cousins and my family, always supporting me and loving me.

There are just so many people I want to thank, so THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR MAKING BEING A PART OF MY LIFE!

sisteryy<3

2009-12-23T22:51:00.003+08:00

thanks for being there for me when i needed someone like you the most, someone who may sometimes be really annoying yet understandable caring and concern about my everything.to have such a awesome cousin like you who's such a good and perfert student,the president of the concillor,once a captain of a volleyball cca, smart and hardworking student in good classes and all is my world of proudness i luv you like a pure gold heart.have fun in taiwan must miss me :'-(

peizhen.

2009-12-16T23:46:00.002+08:00

Take it from me:

love has all the lasting permanence of a rainbow - beautiful while it's there, and just as likely to have disappeared by the time you blink. So what's your heart beating for? Do not wait, go ahead.

Wellwellwell, today I spent half of my day with Wanyu the fish and the other half with my sister. First half, I forced myself to study in the ice world with fish saying non-stop of "Let's go out and study!" add in the whiny tone*But I don't take that so we continued to stay in the ice world.

Second half, I went to catch a movie with my sister. Frog and the Princess, or the other way round? Nevermind. Yay, I love cold activities!

Tomorrow is going to be the same again(:

Oh, I just realised I have ugly fingers, too much of the fingertips on strings.

2009-12-15T22:14:00.001+08:00

For sharon(: $10

2009-12-10T22:07:00.005+08:00

Yay, I love today so much. Today, five5 of us(my bro, sis, two cousins and of course me) became aunties. There was a sale at SembawangShoppingCentre where they sell their things at 10cents, 1dollar and 10dollars. Cheap to the max. So we woke up very early and went to queue up, but then there were people earlier than us! We knew we didn't make it to the first 100 and my sis came up with a conspiracy. I shall not reveal it but I can tell you that its thrilling. We didn't manage to get the Seahourse bed at 10 bucks though, we were so close to that! However, good thing was that we ate Astons for only 15bucks! We got two plates of beef for 1 dollar which originally cost 16.50. Hah! Then we went around the shopping centre, mostly window shopped and we headed for New Moon in causeway. The movie was what the hell.

Today was just FUN! I love my family! Photos time!(:

2009-12-06T22:07:00.002+08:00

I woke up late, AGAIN. I have to wake up early tomorrow! The books and homework are waiting for me! Anyway, today I spent quality time with my family. We went to causeway! Right, I know it a boring place but I haven't been there since school closed? And I saw a lot of nice shoes that I really really want to bring home! Even my sister have to pull me out of the shop, that's how much I love those shoes and I cant bear to take my eyes off them. Come to think of that, I haven't been spending money on all these stuff for a very long already, maybe one day I should just spend all my money.

I hate emo people, I hate emo posts. Although sometimes I produce emo posts, I still hate people who produce it excessively. Hate as in, I really cant think of a reason why they are always sad and feels that the whole world is against them? If you are reading this and you are unhappy about your life, maybe its time to just open up to someone whom you trust. Its your life, you lead it.

Its a Conspiracy.

2009-12-04T22:25:00.002+08:00

I AM BACK FROM OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE! It was fun, but not as fun as I expect it to be. The most memorable things I can remember was that we were soaked in seawater for like 2 days and you can only get a bit of plain water to clean up yourself. I also learnt about the truth of the "ingredients" in the sea. It is now currently make up of PEE, SHIT, chicken curry noodle, rice and other things that you wont want to know.
I swear I will try as hard as possible not to go near to the sea again.

We kayaked like mad and now I don't think I know what is the feeling of tired anymore. People always say perseverance very important, for me, I never know what is the real feeling of persevering and keep moving forward to reach your goal until I have been to this camp. One thing good about this leadership camp was that, they don't really stress you too much on the purpose, they just want you to have fun and make you find out things that you always wanted to know, to feel and to learn about. They pushed you to your limits and made you picked up new skills and interesting learning points.

We learnt how to belay too, it was damn cool. I always thought belaying is something hard and complicated, but well, apparently not. Rock climbing was fun, especially when you reached the top and shouted your commitment. "I WANT TO BE KIDS' NIGHTMARE!" Right, guess what I want to be in the future from that.

Sleeping in the tent for four4 days, can you imagine how torturing it was? But to be honest, I kind of like to sleep in the tent plus pitching the tent.

Alright, here comes the best part of the camp, spending time with PriscillaY instead of my group mates.(I am sellfish) Having Yifanny sticking to me and hitting my head, especially when she placed her head on my butt when I was belaying. Ah neh and Daniel for talking craps which made the camp more fun. Sharon for popping out from nowhere and hyper-ing when I was really bored. Rachel for her weirdest rice on the Earth. Wanyu for being my kayak partner although she was weak and cannot make the kayak move when she paddled alone.(instead the opps face) The whole DHANABALAN PEOPLE and the whole OBS.

I shall stop here.
I LOVE MUM!

2009-11-28T22:55:00.003+08:00

When I finally got to get some rest and quiet time myself, problems start to pour into my mind again like waves of the sea splashing hard onto the shore. Well, I was just thinking about those councillor stuff, getting worried and don't know what to do. Who can help me? Urgh. Maybe after OBS then I will start my exhausted engine going again. I have decided to stay at home to study, bake, sleep, read, kpop until the Bintan trip, unless special people ask me out.

Wait till you see the sunshine.
Everything is going to be okay.

2009-11-26T22:16:00.005+08:00

Hey Readers! I am back from the YoReCa camp! It was awesome! Well, let me just tell you some of the fun things that happened in the camp. Oh! The most funniest thing was that, I MET MY PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIEND! How funny right? Okay, maybe not, its just that I find it quite amazing as the last camp I went I met another primary school friend.

Right, so this camp I had participated for the 4days were all about being resilience, we had a lot of field trips to different places such as Singapore Civil Defence Force Training place where they basically told us about some emergency procedures like what to do when you are facing danger and Unconventional Threats(terrorists)that Singapore might be facing.

We also went to the SMRT and SBS Transit to learn about public transport security awareness and community emergency preparedness awareness. It was quite cool as we undergo the fake situation which was pretty real.

We travelled to the Immigration Checkpoint Authority at Tuas. This place check for smuggling and illegal immigrants. They showed us how the illegal people make their fake passport and where they hide cigarettes.

Beside going to all these places which may seems boring to you, we played fun team building games too. One of it was the "Human Ladder" where your group mates hold the wooden logs in the air and you stepped on it. It was damn challenging.

I guess I should stop here. The camp was just FUN. Pictures time!

My group leader.

Primary School Friend!

2009-11-17T23:31:00.003+08:00

Hey all. Sorry for the long Chinese post. Anyway, holiday is boring! I miss all my friends. Anyway, love you guys. Ask me out:D

2009-11-15T22:36:00.002+08:00

今天，我带着一种特别的心情和我的哥哥还有cousins出门。已经有很久没有这种感觉了，这种放松的心情我想只有和他们在一起才会有吧。最近我的心情有点乱，不知所措，但又不知道该怎么做。反正我也不知道该怎么说，就是说不上来。假期真的有点无聊，除了去学校，搞学生会的一些东西，打打球，做功课，真的没有什么东西可以做了。学生的生活就是怎么没有色彩，除了读书还是读书。想要为自己的生活增添一点乐趣真的还有点难。

时间过得真快，一转眼2009年就要和我们说再见了。回想起这一整年所发身的事情，我有点遗憾。大家都变了，有时候我真的觉得我对周围的人都没有了信任，也觉得有点孤单。真犯贱。当2009向我们挥挥手时，就是我需要开始战斗的时候，就是会考一步一步跟紧我的脚步的时候。虽然有点害怕，但还是要面对，我会加油，希望大家也和我一起加油。

就此搁笔，余言再叙。

sorry for typing chinese.

2009-11-11T22:00:00.002+08:00

Hey! O level Chinese paper is over! Yay! Right, some things happened lately and I don't know whether was it good or bad. Nevermind, I shouldn't think so much, let time proof everything. I hope it will proof that its a good thing. Well, I am feeling a bit weird and acting like a cox-2 lately. I know its doesn't make sense cause its suppose to not make any sense in the first place. I miss my cousin and I wonder how is she doing now and also at the same time, right now, I wonder if she turn better or maybe, worst? I don't dare to think anymore.

I hope we stay at the same point. Don't move.

2009-11-01T01:46:00.005+08:00

Went. Rise and shine.
Not there. Spaghetti and tv.
Not important, at all. Violin and guitar.
Angry, or maybe sad. Calendar and Planner.
No more trust. Specs and bubble tea.
Don't need. Daydream and stunned.
Immune, used to it.
Waste time.

2009-10-24T21:39:00.002+08:00

I am such a lousy blogger. Sorry for not updating. Anyway I guess nobody stay tuned on this online diary of mine too. I shall blog whenever I like, which really depends on how interesting my day is going to be or maybe the mood. It has been really warm and humid these few days and I felt like I was being baked by the sun within seconds once I stepped out into the open space. How I wish that Singapore will snow someday. Wait, that is going to be bad cause it means that there is something wrong with our Earth. So, today I started off by waking up at 8 in the morning with a little bit of laziness in me. I wanted to come out with some excuses saying that I am not feeling well or something however I still managed to pull myself out of the cozy bed.

Why do I have wake up so early? It was because of the friendly match with sembawang secondary. Honestly, I think everyone did their best but it was quite embarrassing though. I rushed home after that for my violin lesson and watched a whole day of television programme. I really have got nothing to do, I wanted to do some revision but I just couldn't bring myself to do that. So I watched the clock went one round, two round, three round...as if I was watching a snail. Come to think of what I was like a couple of weeks ago, I was practically rushing with time and had my nose in the books. However, it was worthwhile.

I guess sometime people don't really have to work so hard. When there is time for you to take a rest, catch with your friends and well I did. Spent some days with S,R,P,Y and it felt awesome. Yesterday's sakae scandal gave us a whole loads of laughter, I had never laughed so hard for a very long time and it felt great. I love you girls!

Tommy in your Tummy. (?)

2009-10-19T16:51:00.003+08:00

Hi people. I am in priscilla's house now. Sleepover at her house yesterday. I was quite unlucky, because my stomach was protesting and I didn't eat the BBQ food-.- well now we are having movie marathon. There is school tomorrow! No! Nevermind, I hope school is going to be fun. I am bored now. I feel like sleeping.

2009-10-16T19:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I feel that you've changed. I try not to think that way but I couldn't bring myself to stop feeling disappointed and frustrated.

Sometimes I wish you weren't there, so that I don't need to witness every single thing you do.

I questioned myself, am I too much?

Is it human nature? Or is it the environment?

一切与我何干.

2009-10-14T22:52:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since I blog. I am so sorry! Anyway, EXAMS ARE OVER! At least until the next year. So, today I went to school for the sec 4 graduation thing and then SHARON'S HOUSE! We had steamboat! It was fun and nice time catching up with them. Everyone had been so busy with their own stuff and we forgot to sit down and have a break. No matter what, I still love you guys kay! You guys are the best people I have ever met.

Nothing can break us apart.

2009-09-21T01:17:00.002+08:00

Yay! Three days break! Anyway, Hi. End of year is extremely round the corner. I am so scare! Please give all the energy to fight this tough war. Jia you to korkor too! You can do it! Anyway, three of us( my sister, brother and I ) is going to transform cousin! The reason is because, SHE IS TOO LAZY! Lazy until you can go saying the same things for more than 6 months! Sometimes I feel quite disappointed but its all up to her. So, in order to transform her successfully, we ask her to come to our house during the weekends to study, however until now, it seem like it doesn't take effect on her. Its okay, we will still do our best to help her, I really don't want to see her having difficulties to earn a living when she grows up. Although maybe its not going to be that bad. Back to my point, EOY! Argh! I can do it man! JIAYOU!

Heart-searching.

2009-09-11T21:34:00.005+08:00

Hey all! Its friday! Oh no, that means holiday is going to end soon. I love today, although its a rainy day. Simply because I spent the day playing volleyball.

Let us put everything behind and keep on running...

2009-09-10T19:49:00.002+08:00

Hey. I feel smashed.

How many more can I face?

2009-09-08T20:48:00.002+08:00

Hi! Its holiday! Have I say that before? Nevermind, this holiday is very much like a school week. Today was great, practically laughing all the way in the train ride home. ALL BECAUSE OF RACHEL DASS. Ah, I am feeling guilty now, didn't touch my homework today.

Today is rainbow day. Why?

2009-09-01T17:57:00.003+08:00

Hey. Teachers' day was awesome, I am so glad that the flour ball thing worked out. Netball interhouse game was fun. Although we lost, everyone played well. Had lunch with my favourite twins( J & A)and paterlin plus jiaxin and rachelle. WANYU ABANDONED US. Then, left with my cousin, shannon and I. After that, met up with my sister and we walked around.

Such a boring life right?

2009-08-26T20:32:00.002+08:00

Heyyy. Hiii. Hellooo. Okay, I am bored. Prelim was damn...(lost for words) nevermind. What should I say? Am I lost? Well, I guess its not so easy to differentiate anymore, BUT I will try. Today, I hope Book is going to feel better, hope that Xavier become bouncier and hope that teachers' day will be a success.

What's right? What's wrong?

2009-08-23T01:09:00.002+08:00

Hi! This week was colourful. Interhouse games were fun. Tests were okay. Councillor stuff was messy. CCA was awesome. Teachers were funny especially Miss Uma(she was having moodswing) Miss Rabbiya and her a tongue tied day. (dube/doom shape). Wanyu kept laughing at me for no reasons.

Yesterday(sat) played volleyball with strangers, they were damn good. I had fun with them.

Well, that's all.

You've become the thing I hate.

2009-08-19T20:11:00.002+08:00

Hi! i'm yunyi's cousin, peizhen.

cousinyy, wanna know how i hack into your account? hee. loveyou!

2009-08-07T23:03:00.003+08:00

Hi! I LOVE 3TOTHEPOWEROF5! WE ROCK! Today was totally madness. Everyone practically had fun singing. Finally, not forgetting to mention about the long weekends! And family outting tomorrow! Haha. I know, I am very happy.

It doesnt seem like much of a problem anymore, once you get used to it.

2009-08-01T23:06:00.002+08:00

Much Ado About Nothing.

Right, violin is so hard to play.

Stop being lazy.

Bye.

2009-07-30T21:36:00.003+08:00

Things have never been smooth nowadays. I am quite frustrated with myself. Don't ask why, I don't know too. Maybe its the people, can you really understand why they have become like that? Or is it because they're just different from you? It feels like you're living with them. Going to school everyday as usual, doing the same old mundane things as per normal, meet the same old people again and again but the only difference is, you're putting on different suits of armour everyone single day. Don't you feel tired? Don't you feel like screaming out," STOP!!" Everything just changed suddenly, what makes you think that it has been just like before? You just don't fit in anymore.

Everybody is changing and I don't know why.

2009-07-24T22:23:00.003+08:00

Hi. I am feeling really down today. Interview with Mrs Yeo was extremely bad. I lost my heartbeat and confident at that very moment. Oh well, nevermind. I don't suit the front line anyway.

Everyone is changing, I am starting to feel inferior and small. How long can I take the pressure? How long can I continue to be silent? How long can I face the fake and the real? How long?

Everything has their limitation, I guess mine is almost there.

2009-07-14T21:45:00.003+08:00

Today, I have done a lot of silliest things in my whole life.

Number1: I forgot to wear my specs, so I had to go back home to take-.-

Number2: I left my BIG pencil case in class.(DUMBEST)

Number3: I have dropped several things a lot of times in causeway.

Number4: I forgot to take AMATH extra practice.

Little purple fish is sick! (again) Hope she gets well soon, follow the to-do-list and you will heal like a fish!

I need the drive and I hope you don't change.

2009-07-12T22:30:00.003+08:00

Hi.
Today was REALLYREALLYREALLY slack. I only managed to write my notes. I have tried out the chemistry worksheet, but hey, there was this weird M thing on the question, I do not know if it mole or concentration and I don't know what other things, therefore, mission incomplete. I wanted to continue my C4, and crap, I have to do the name list for the cranes folding thing.

So.
Lets rewind back to yesterday. My outting with ah pat the baby voice and wanyu the purple fish cum the birthday girl. Wanyu was so damn SLOW, at first we said 2.30 meet at causeway point and we ended up meeting at 3 plus near 4. Because Wanyu dont know what to wear. Our destination: Orchard. The funny thing was that, in my whole life time, I never ever spend my whole orchard trip at only fareast until yesterday. We wanted to walk to heeren, cineleisure and etc but ended up just at FAREAST. Still, the whole trip was so fun with the girls.
I spent my money on food and food and....food+ a tanktop. I love to eat, cant help it.
Wanyu brought a tanktop and a bag( paterlin and I paid half for her:D)
Paterlin brought a pair of shoes and a handbag.
Oh, I saw this box bag that I really like! B-O-X B-A-G.( actually, its not call a box bag. but I don't know what is the name.)

Well, another week of school. Concentrate and strive.

Ps. Love purple fish and baby voice.

2009-07-03T22:25:00.002+08:00

Hi, Syaz says my hair has mood swing. Indeed it does. 1st week of school passed really slowly, however the long desire Friday had finally came. I watched ICE AGE 3! My favourite since young.

Sometimes, I hate you.
Sometimes, I want to talk to you.
Sometimes, I think I am sick.
Sometimes, you are just a mannequin.
Sometimes, when there is just you and me, there is only silent.
Sometimes, I wished we were still like back then.
Sometimes, you really suck.
Sometimes, I wished I have never met you before.
Sometimes, I think its my fault.
Sometimes, I wonder why you behave like that.
Sometimes, I want to decipher your mind quite badly.
Sometimes, I think you were just trying to make me feel terrible.
Sometimes, I wished you could just disappear.
Sometimes, just stop it.
Sometimes, I wonder why am I concern.

Sometimes and sometimes, its all history. You will never be here again.

2009-06-29T21:53:00.003+08:00

Hi. Today its special. I am going to talk about spoiled brats, copycats and the "strawberry gang". I will explain that in the later part of my post. Well, today is the first day of school! Nothing special happened, but I KEPT SINGING MICHAEL JACKSON'S SONGS! I think there will be no one like him anymore, his moonwalk and songs. Oh yeah, I had a hard time with the machines at the library! Then when I got really irritated, it finally worked for me. Damn machines. And I think Jinzen and Book are my bestfriends! Right, I know it random. Thanks.

Back to my topic.
1. Spoiled Brats. ( teenagers )
As the world keeps changing and the technology keeps improving. People in this age group no longer appreciate what they have right now. For most I have met, the outstanding frequent sentence I will always hear is " I want __________!" When they just got something like that a couple months ago. To me, it is so irritating! ( I know I am a teenager too, but I DO NOT DO THAT. ) Cant people be satisfied with what they already have? I mean, you don't really need the thing but you just want it. It is a very selfish act. Think of the people in the rural countries! They don't even have tv! Save money for your parents, be thrifty. STOP BUYING AND WANTING USELESS THINGS! YOU DON'T NEED IT!

2.Copycats.
BE ORIGINAL! C'mon! Have your own style man! I shall not elaborate more, cause the content will be for you to think.

3. The "strawberry gang"
It means nowadays teenagers being damn weak! When it comes to handling things and holding responsibilities, they give up easily and hide from it when they met little obstacles. Just like strawberries, it get smash easily.

Alright, I don't know why I typed all those, its just a sudden urge from elsewhere. I am absolutely sure that I am either of that.

Goodbye, mug hard for the next half of year!

2009-06-25T01:38:00.003+08:00

Hi again. This post is for Wanyu the purple fish.

One day, purple fish was having fever and feeling really not well.
Purple fish's mum said maybe she got the H1N1 flu.
But well, they went to a doctor and the doctor said she got gastric.
Purple fish was puzzled, she didn't even know how she got it.
But, I know! It is because purple fish always don't eat!

Do-do-list for purple fish:
1.DRINK AT LEAST 10TEN CUPS OF WATER A DAY!
2.EAT MORE CARBOHYDRATES AND PROTEIN.
3.REST A LOT A LOT.
4.(the most important thing to do!)MISS WANGYUNYI EVERYSECONDS!

Haha, see you when school reopen(:

2009-06-24T21:52:00.002+08:00

Hi Loyal Readers! Guess what, I am in the craze of baking cookies! Well, couldnt think of anything to do. School is going to reopen soon! Damn, I dont want to go back to war. Having at least one test a week and tons of tons of homework that piles up like a huge mountain. I have wasted the whole holiday, I just pray that next term I could suddenly turn as smart as Shaphat, which it probably wouldnt happen, but still, give me the power! I can do it!

Sometimes I wonder why you have changed into such a person.

2009-06-21T23:22:00.003+08:00

Hi. Had family excursion today. We went to a vegetable farm!

And HAPPY FATHERS' DAY DAD! He is the number 1 dad in the whole world. He cooks. Not many fathers can cook nowadays.

I shall post some pictures(:

Love my family!(: the Zhangs, the Tans and the Wangs!

2009-06-20T23:58:00.002+08:00

Hi. Hello. Hey. Halo. Aloha.(insert hi in any languages) Holiday! I didn't make use of it:( Hope they say school holiday extend one more week:D And! I WANT A CAPO! Okay, that's so random. My blog is totally dead, I guess nobody is reading, which is a good thing. Well, I shall update my loyal readers again.

Takecare and I hate you.

2009-06-16T17:17:00.008+08:00

Hi. Came back from YLC8 Camp. I went alone. ALONE. And I was really bored on the first day and didn't smile a lot. Most of them said I looked quite scary if I dont smile.
Day1:
My group ICE-SERVE! Group members: Me, Ivy, Huili, Prisca, Atikah, Liyana, Benjamin, Chea Yee, Ann, Cecilia, Pearl. We had FUNFUNFUN team building games and discussion for Sunlove project.
Day2:
Morning walk to Hort Park. Then departure for field trip to Marsiling CC and Sunlove Home. I went to buy ingredients for the next day outdoor cooking with Atikah. It was damn fun, we went to VIVO giant. Debate night. Preparation for Project.
Day3:
OUTDOOR COOKING! Our group cooked spaghetti then SUNLOVE HOME! We performed for them. Confidence walk.
Day4:
Affirmation. We had this rope cutting thing. Everyone was quite emotional. This camp was really fun and meaningful. Its notlike any other camps. We will have a 1 year commitment to do our signature project.

I know what I wrote sounded really boring. But, you can never imagine how everyone bonded so well and being very together as one team.

Anyway, photos time(:

Unglam unglam. Haha.

I have no idea what they doing. (FACIL)

Ben act cute #3

Chea Yee and Liyana.

YLC8!

Liyana.

Huili and Ben the couple.

Jaron.

Chea Yee.

Pearl.

Jaron and Liyana.

Belle the unglam.

Ivy.

Ann.

Huili.

Atikah.

ICE-SERVE!

act cute ben#1

ACT CUTE ben#2.

Fallen tree after the heavy rain.

Raymond the magician who doesnt want to take photos.

2009-06-06T17:22:00.003+08:00

HEllo.One more week of school just didnt make me feel more workable. Well, volleyball camp was messy, but fun? At least get to spend time with Wanyu and friends plus pz too. Let's post some pictures(:
I think Wanyu is going to kill me:P

Sentosa

Syazana!

2009-05-31T01:08:00.003+08:00

Hello, this is my 222 post. Friday, 29 May 2009 was a great success. Thanks for the people who helped out(3E5) we had about 2400 plus viewers for Saturn and Moon. So I stayed over in school with the Astronomy Club people. We stayed up until 4am plus in the morning. We have managed to see Jupiter, the Jewel box, some butterfly thing, a triangle thing(cant remember the name. Some N7 and N6, they are stars of course) and some other constellations like Scorpio and Southern Cross. It was a fruitful night, never ever imagine that I would be able see a real telescope and even viewing wonderful things with it. It was damn fun. Sucha pity that the diabolical twins didn't stay with us.

June break has begin. I have planned how to spend it wisely, hope that next term I would be able to strive better results.

I hate that attitude you gave me.

2009-05-25T23:00:00.002+08:00

Halohellohihey. Today was quite fun, no wait! It's very fun! Well, had class got talent thing. Actually our class didn't even want to participate, but got scolded. Poor Miss eleora, sorry. So almost the whole class participate. I was in the BYS(Book, Syaz and Yunyi)and performed with rachel too, can't believe that I actually performed with my lousy guitar skill, well but who cares. It was damn fun! Shock that I didn't feel very nervous. Esther and her 7pm group danced really well. The Korean band. And some other funny people performed. Its just so fun, Mr Kang had fun with us too. Too bad for Miss Uma, she went for the boring seminar. HAh! Tried out our telescope. Cost like 2K, but finally our own telescope! Yay! I guess that's all, had a really fun day today.

Another video of Katy Perry Live. Damn nice, better than CD.

2009-05-24T16:46:00.003+08:00

Hello. I have been watching boys over flower a few days back. It was damn nice! Hah. I like the ending. I got back my results, as in on the report one. I think its alright after all, I didn't get any Cs. Next term target is to have more As. Its after exam but I have not get myself some new clothes and stuff (shopping) yet! I have been staying at home, reading book and rot. I als decided I should start some revising.

Its by Katy Perry, I like the way she plays her guitar.

2009-05-20T19:57:00.002+08:00

Helloblog. I think my results suck. Yes. I am glad Soonguan always comfort me and knows what I am really feeling. I think I have to change my study style. Any lecture that I could attend on, " How to Study Smart? " Hoh.

Bang, you die.

2009-05-18T22:38:00.002+08:00

hey all. It boring after exam. Hah, I know. Weird. But I guess everyone is feeling the same way. Maybe? So, I am getting back my results on Wednesday. I hope I've done well. Oh well, at least I have worked very hard for this exam. Ever wonder why the sky always turn into different colours? I do wonder.

Maybe I am wishing too much. Such things never happen to me.

2009-05-16T18:19:00.002+08:00

Exams are officially over! Pity those who still need to go back to school on Monday for exam. Now, I can finally feel that loosened spring in me.
I had the biggest shock in my life yesterday. Lucky it happened after exam, unlucky because it happened after exam. Crap. I am sorry that I have shortened wanyu's life for 3 years but I wanted to thank her so much that she was by my side. That only she could feel I felt at that very moment, how she tried to fight back even if she was already in shock. Thanks that Esther and Chengyan who came back and help. And Xinyi they all comforting. Also, thanks that soonguan comfort me with his weird but adorable logic and reasons, plus his tea. It just happened so unrealistically and it happened to me, an ordinary person. But I am lucky I am still here posting. Thanks to any god and goddess who have heard my prayer. Thanks to my granddad and grandma in heaven. Now, I totally believe that anything can happen in this world, at anywhere, anytime.

2009-05-03T20:33:00.002+08:00

Yes, I looked like the girl in the picture. But the other way round. The books buried me. I can't wait for the last paper to end. Then I can get my hands off the books. Have lunch! and anything else you could think of. Just, NO MORE STUDYING. Anyway, left with 7 more papers. I hope I could pull through and get good results.

Bye, all the best!

2009-04-25T18:10:00.003+08:00

Knockknock, Yunyi says hello. My blog is pretty much DEAD. Sorry. I wasn't feeling well for the previous days, even on my BIRTHDAY and now, I am running a slight fever. Get well soon, Yunyi. THREE3 killer tests on Monday. It is only eat, study, sleep. eat, study, sleep. eat, study, sleep. I hope mid-year quickly come and go. I want to shop! I want to have movie marathon! I want to eat lunch with my girlfriends! I want to hibernate! I am desperate for a break. There is this inner stress in me that I couldn't feel that I am stressed. Oh well, nevermind. Persevere is the best medicine for craps. The weather is freaking hot nowadays, take good care of yourself people! Drink more water!

partial flavour.

2009-04-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

Hey all! I basically went to everyone's blog(people I know and blog is alive) and tagged them. Hah. Don't ask why, just had that sudden urge to do so. Today's performance was ugly! Andand! PRISY IS BACK FROM EBC! MISS HER SO MUCH! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HER!

2009-04-09T22:14:00.002+08:00

Hello, yes I know. THE BLOG IS DEAD. I was really busy for the passed two weeks. Tests, homework and CCA. Let's talk about last week. 3 different chairs, 3times (its really horrible) 6 EXTREME TESTS. Insane SYF practices for CO, boring Astronomy 1day camp and tons of homework. This week was no better than last week. Chemistry Project all the way, 78% of mine and got haunted by it for 6 days! I swear I am going to find efficient people like Sharon and Yifan next time. Mdm Wee's boring childhood that was so interesting. Oxymoron. Tons of homework as usual, PLUS! "holiday homework" for Good Friday. Come on! Its meant to be a holiday for heaven sake! Last but not least, I got back all the tests (I think?) did quite well for all. Well, at least I know that sacrificing sleeping time didn't waste my effort and produced results. Then, tomorrow. I am going to Jon's house to do Astronomy Project but I am having a Good Gerald Leader(: so I won't be doing everything myself again. Then after that, going out with Shalang, Xiazana and Thng to watch movie and roam around. Okay, I think my current life is very boring and uninteresting now. Its all about schoolschoolschool, nothing beyond anything but school.

I was eating at Long John alone just now and began to reminisce. Quite a lot of good and bad memorise flashed back like a flood so vividly. Maybe because I have not been stepping into causeway for a long time and I was missing that feeling or its just purely out of the coincidence that my brains just wanted to recall. Whatever it was, part of me was glad to be alone and to have some peace and the other part of me just felt so empty and wanted someone to be there. Then, I went to the library, took a book, sat down at a corner and I started to daydream. Suddenly, I saw someone familiar. Oh! It was my primary school friend! But guess what, she passed by twice and didn't notice that I was just there looking at her. Oh well, I guess I am just quite insignificant to her. She is in sportschool, a different person. I actually wanted to say hi to her but something pulled me back. That weird situation and atmosphere, just not quite right to have a small reunion.

I think that's all. Bye people. Stay Strong!

Love,
Yunyi.

2009-03-27T20:17:00.004+08:00

First week of term 2 was exceptionally long and Gerald didn't ask much questions anymore. Weird much, but well, let's talk about schoolschoolschool. Our "beloved and nice" teachers threw us bombs. We are going to have 6TESTS next week.Volleyball is officially a recreational CCA:( I just feel plain disappointed. That burning passion and hope have start to faint. And today! PRISCILLAYAUYUETYI WENT TO CLIMB EBC ALREADY! I am so gonna miss her like hell. She is like the prettiest among all climbers!(no offence, speaking the truth.) I am so glad that weekends have arrived! Being humble is the mother of success.

2009-03-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wonder if the mirror will reflect the dark, ugly side of you?

What if one day you go M.I.A, will anyone take any notice and look for you?

Do you think that you are a good person?

If you die, will anyone feel sad?

Or what if one day you just bottle up everything and never speak again?

Will anyone even care about you and everything?!

Well, its just a thinking process. Evil is everywhere.

2009-03-15T23:07:00.001+08:00

Bio practical was crappy.

Movie was awesome.

My BBF hurt his tendon.

And I feel weird.

2009-03-13T21:58:00.004+08:00

Today was awesome. Went for the Astronomy competition at NYP with my awesome group members! WE WON THE MOST IMPROVED TEAM PRIZE! Everyone's efforts for staying back in school everyday until 6 plus worth so much. Next year we are going to strive for the better(: And Gabriel came out with Bimbology! He is a PHD holder for this topic and the one and only specialist in the world!

Well, I also got back my results too. It was damn lousy. But actually, I think I have done average or maybe good for the first term. I had mostly B3s, some A2s and A1s. My percentage is 71 and 20/40 in class-.- Oh well, my class are full of geeks. Next term is going to be better! I am glad actually. With all the ups and downs that made me have no motivation, I still made it through and overcome all the obstacles. Mainly because Rachel, Wanyu have been supporting me. TANPEIZHEN(the pager), the one and only always staying by my side even if I threw my tantrums on her. My strong, elegant, smart and lovable sister who always help me out with my school works and problems. After all, life has not been that bad if one look at the bright side of it

I guess, you and I. We just hope for the same ending actually.

2009-03-10T23:34:00.008+08:00

Hoh, today was such a chaos. CO rehearsal at SCH till 10pm and Coach last session with us:(
Although there were times when you scolded me but still thanks for coaching me, as well as the rest. I couldn't comprehend how I feel about this whole thing, but to just live with it and move on. Such things always happen throughout everyone's life. I realised that now I couldn't even judge good and bad, right and wrong. Life has been so up-side-down. Everything just seems so wrong. Everyone is just putting on a mask. I have became so pessimistic, so dead.

everyateonehi.

2009-03-08T01:56:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was practically a boring day. I was jumping around the house. Everyday is almost the same, I can't imagine how the outside world would be like now cause I haven't been stepping out of the house for months. How scary right? I don't have a life now. But well, I guess it wont last long. Maybe? Alright, I don't know.

8 raw.

2009-03-07T01:33:00.005+08:00

Orion the hunter.
(when you see the 3 stars in a row, that is the belt of the Orion.)
Greeks are weird but imaginative. The Cancer which they saw as a crab does not look like a crab and the Virgo does not look like a naked woman!

Hey all, yesterday was E-Learning day. I went to Nanyang Polytechnic for the astronomy lecture. MISS UMA CAME ALONG!(I like miss uma(:) Gerald and I went for the elements of astronomy. It was easy compared to others. I had my most interesting and memorable lesson with Miss Uma! We saw Orion and his dog plus Taurus in the sky! For your information, they are all constellations. I was really amazed by what I saw, cause I thought in Singapore we would never be able to see constellations. But surprisingly, we could see all sorts of constellations in Singapore as the year goes by and you could see Venus the planet during evening in this season. Then, when I got back home, I got really excited and told my whole family about what I saw. They were laughing at me, because I was too like a small kid. Yesterday was really fun and the weather was great although it was a little hot, but still it was better than rainy days.

Angels and Devils.

Thursday's night rain, Friday's midnight rain.

2009-03-06T01:04:00.007+08:00

I am still waiting for the day where the sun is sunny and endless rainbow cross over the sky.

没内涵的人，会被没有内涵的事物所吸引。

2009-02-28T19:53:00.002+08:00

Biologytest.Chemistryspelling.Vocabularytest.Socialstudiestest.

我到底在坚持什么?

2009-02-27T22:36:00.003+08:00

Hi. I am back to update my readers. A week passed like a lightning again. A lot of things happened and I realised I need to gather all my thoughts and do the right things. No matter what people say about me, its for the team. As a leader, I am prepared to get all the nonsense. Well, its time to be a bad person.

Alright, back to my week 8. I had a lot of tests this week and I think I have done well for most. I guess this year have started badly for me, I hope everything gets better. For all the upcoming tests, relationships and the rest. I hope my readers who are encountering obstacles could overcome them too, wish everyone the best.

I begin to see the real side of everyone, who is truthful and responsible, who is lying and unfaithful. Its all very clear now. Human are just creatures who self-contradict themselves.

以前的往事，只能回顾。成了定局的事实，让我明白，让我长大。就算只剩下一个人，我也能过得很好，因为我不再需要你，我不会再被你拖累。我会以平常心面对一切。

2009-02-22T18:57:00.002+08:00

I must be very normal for this weekend. Because, I simply didnt revise anything on saturday after Biopois. Anyway, biopolis was quite boring but amazing. And today! I did Amath and Emath revision(a small amount only). I have Amath test on Wednesday and Emath test on Thursday.

And please change the volleyball coach!

Be brave to live.

2009-02-20T22:49:00.003+08:00

Hello, its a Friday and I think Winda had passed her flu virus to me. Anyway, I thought yesterday was only a Monday and guess what? TODAY IS FRIDAY. Can you see how time passes so fast without us knowing. I hate it when time passes so fast. That means I am grower older and older every seconds, every minutes, every hours and every days! And I don't want to grow up:( But too bad, I am left with no choice. We need to grow up and take up huge responsibilities one day. Maybe cause of the amount of tests/homejoy had given to us by the teachers in school, and maybe because of my two CCAs. It makes time passes fast. I could only have 6 hours of sleep every day, sometimes 5 hours? I have no life. I am doing the same routine everyday. So mundane.

Sometimes, I just feel so lazy and I don't want to do anything(no such thing is gonna happen). Fortunately, I think I have been coping well with school work and everything, nothing makes me upset anymore cause it is really silly to brood over it. I hope my hard work do pays off. My CA1 results wont turn out badly. Maybe a top 15 in class? I know I could not make it to top 5 or top 10 anymore. Maybe mid year examination. Wish me the best:D

Dignity and Principle.

2009-02-18T20:44:00.002+08:00

I realised how bad people's mouth could be, but no matter what you have heard about what people said about you, you know that you did not do such things. Sometimes, have confident with yourself, do not feel guilty about it and do not feel sad. They wont take a slight notice of you because they don't really care how you feel. They just say whatever they like without thinking. The more they wanted you to be upset, the more you have to show them that you are living 10times, 100times, 1000times happier than them. Life is unfair and sometimes filled with stress and cruelty. How you want to live your life is all up to you, happiness starts from you! So readers! Take my advice, forget about what have made you so upset lately and live on with life! Rock your own life!:D

2009-02-17T20:10:00.002+08:00

Everyday seems so tough for me, facing different people with different masks, just make me feel so tired. But with the small effort from you have brightened up my days. How you cheer me up, how you actually care. Our small girls talk during the FTC periods while waiting for miss uma and our everyday routine. WANYU! I LOVE YOU!

I begin to see who is real.

2009-02-14T20:59:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when I close my eyes and reminisce, a warm drop of tear rolled down my cheek. I am still left alone in that corner where no one could ever find me again.

2009-02-11T19:35:00.006+08:00

The month came and went. I had been very busy with my schoolwork lately. Things still go on as the way it should be, I put in all my effort to study, to forget. Everything passed so fast. And I realised that I have been left behind. Left betrayed, left with my trust abused, left in deep confusion and sorrow. With these mixed feelings inside my heart, it is hard to express my feelings just plainly with words. I have been questioning myself, reflecting over and over again. Blaming myself for being naive. I have tried very hard for these two years, giving my best, however things did not work out. I don't need the attention from you, but I just want you to know that I truthfully care for you deep down my heart. We are left with a broken bond. It is hard for me to give the trust again as what is left of me is a deep scar. There was a time where I gave myself a period to heal, but now, I have decided to give up. The pain that I have to bear makes me feel so tired. You never notice how much you hurt me because I have always been hiding my true feelings after all. Sometimes, I do really want to talk about it, but I never want you to be upset, that's why I have always stay quiet and be by your side. There is no point to ask any return. Because I have learnt how to let go.

When time goes by, I would be able to pick up myself, to get out of everything.

Starting to become a emo kid? Perhaps.

2009-02-03T00:08:00.002+08:00

如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手.

2009-02-02T00:47:00.003+08:00

Hey all! I AM BACK TO SINGAPORE! I MISS YOU GUYS SO BADLY! Sorry for not posting while in tai wan, there were some connection problems. And I am quite glad to hear that there are not a lot of homework. Tai wan was very fun! I will share my tai wan trip some other days. Cant wait to go school!

Let out a big secret.

2009-01-23T16:30:00.002+08:00

Hey all. I am currently in taiwan now. Its 10 degree celcius here. DIdnt really go anywhere. Yesterday went to visit my grandma, she is damn skinny you know! It was damn sad to see her like that. Brought things from their ye shi. I guess that's all. I would be back to blog again.

2009-01-21T23:56:00.002+08:00

Hello readers! Once again, I'm really sorry about not updating my blog. I have been rather busy, EVEN DURING WEEKENDS! Homework and tests. I am still trying to adapt to sec 3 life. But it seems like triple science students are having more stress than others. Let's talk about last week. B div played two matches, once against yishun, the other is woodlands. Happy to say that we won woodlands! And today B'div is going to play the most challenging match. Xinmin, the real opponent. Unfortunately, I am not going to be there. Because I am going back to taiwan today at 1. So I really hope that both B and C' div could play on every matches with passion and an aggressive heart. We can do it! B' div is going to win and get into the second round! Fear is all in our heart, so girls, we must remember to stay positive and flexible. Scream out all your fear! Use all our strategies! Stay calm and play your best! I will be praying very hard during my flight and I hope to hear good news from you girls! ALL THE BEST!

I would be blogging everyday from now on, to share my trip at taiwan. I hope I could release some tension during the trip and come back with a relax mind. I'll miss you guys! Especially my san ba cousin! See you guys after 11 days!

All along, you have been hiding a secret away from me.

2009-01-11T18:04:00.003+08:00

Hey readers! I am back. I know my blog is already dead. Sorry for not posting for so long. I have been very busy with school stuff for these few days. Got back home, homework and sleep. Being in this three sciences course is really tiring. But I am getting a hold of it. Everything goes well, I can understand what my teachers are teaching. Tournament is coming soon, like next week thursday. I am quite nervous, but also, I hope we can win at least two matches. Then get into the next round. B girls and C girl, we can do it! Mrs Ang asked me to join back the EBC team again, I have been thinking throughout the whole day, but still. I dont know if I should. People, please give some advices. Now, concentrate on studies and volleyball. WIN TOURNAMENT!
And Gareth also must jiayou too! He is like packed with tuition, schoolwork and basketball:O
And I command the power of the universe, make PPC's leg heal!

Yesterday Once More by Sungha Jung.

Let's maintain this.

2009-01-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

First day of school was really tiring, cause I helped out for the sec1 orientation. I think everyone did a great job! Keep it up councillors! But I was dying to go back to my class and see who are my classmates. And the classes now are all mix together, no longer a batch in one level. We are going to start lesson on Monday, heard that its Amaths and Chemistry? I got to get back to the school mode now.

We are just different.

With or Without you by Sungha Jung.

I really admire this 10 years old cute korean boy. He is one of the best guitarist in the world.

2009-01-01T20:46:00.001+08:00

Hey all! HAPPY 2009! Holiday just passed like that, tomorrow is school reopen day. Gonna be very busy. Welcome the new sec1s!

More Than Words by Sungha Jung.

2008-12-31T15:26:00.003+08:00

Hey people! Its last day of 2008! Everything flashed passed like a thunder, I hardly remember anything. But still, there are all printed in my heart. Good memories or bad memories. I just want to thanks all my friends and family. Especially all my girlfriends, Sharon, Yi Fan, PrisC, PrisY and Rachel. My GREAT SISTER AND BROTHER. My crazy cousin peizhen. And everyone else that has been in my life. A day before I was thinking about my streaming year, and now I am already in 3E5. I hope next year would be a better year and my results maintain.

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY RACHELLE HENG!

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2008-12-29T23:15:00.002+08:00

Training totally rock today! Only my girls know, our secret code:O We can do it alright, everything is gonna work out. Right, so today I had a movie marathon with gareth and sharon. We watched 2 movies in one day. Ip Man and Yes Man. Ip Man was DAMN NICE AND AWESOME. Its about this kungfu person, his Yong Chun Qun. Yes Man was not really very nice, but gareth and I just keep laughing and laughing then sharon was being the weird, she didnt laugh at all.

And I have been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. Friends, the past and everything that happened so fast.

I am thinking too much again. Its just another lie.

2008-12-27T02:07:00.002+08:00

Devil & Angel.

My sister actually wanted it to be like really evil, but she doesn't look evil at all. And it came out to be I looked evil and ugly. This is just a random old photo.

So yesterday yesterday was christmas! Celebrated with my cousins, brother, sister + BF. We ate SUKI SUSHI at AMK Hub. The food was alright, but our laughter and funny actions made everything nice. There was this little small boy, he kept waving at us. Oh and I was kind of disappointed with disney channel and cartoon network christmas programme. The programme was not really nice. Cause when I was young, I used to stay at home to watch these two channels the whole day with my sister and brother. And all the shows were very nice!

Yupp! So I spent my christmas with my family. And called up almost everyone who was awake at 12am plus, 25 dec 2008 and wished them a MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Best Boy Friend. BBF.

2008-12-25T03:59:00.005+08:00

Hey all!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Hoho, its Christmas! I am so glad that I have took off all the heavy burden from my shoulders. ( quiting that irritating job) My sister was really professional. Thanks to her, ICANHAVE A HAPPYCHRISTMAS! If not, I would have to work on Christmas and Christmas eve. Whatthestupidboss. Well, school is going to reopen. Everyone sure do have a lot of stuff to do.
1. Get back to all the books.
2. Play friendly with woodlands ring.( if possible )
3. Welcome the sec 1s!
4. New year in Tai Wan.

Once again, MERRY CHRISTMAS!(:

That cute guitarist. (his guitar)

2008-12-20T23:39:00.001+08:00

MY BLOG IS DEAD.
TAG PEOPLE TAG.
SCHOOL REOPEN IN 12 DAYS.
MY COUSIN IS COMING TO MY SCHOOL.

ismindwhat'sonmy.

2008-12-13T01:29:00.001+08:00

Hello. I think I have not been posting for quite a while. Let's update myself and you readers(: Alright, I brought my textbooks last few days and wrote my name on it. I am left with the wrapping and the class writing. You must be wondering why didn't I write my class together with my name right? Cause, I HAVE STICKERS FOR MY NAME! Hoho, that's very primary school. I really can't wait for school to reopen, can't wait to learn new things, can't wait to be with my lovely friends and teachers everyday(almost), can't wait to do a lot a lot of homework, can't wait to write a lot a lot of notes. Yes, I am weird. But who cares. Training for the week was alright. I can serve and I can't serve. Don't know what was with my hand during game and not during game. Tournament is coming real soon. The first day of the tournament is on 15January2009. Don't know when would be us. I am really afraid. Go B'div! WE CAN DO IT! B'DIV JIAYOU! SHA!SHA!SHA! And I have not seen my girlfriends for a very long time. Since the china trip. I have only been meeting up with sharon and prisc, cause of training. I miss you rachelsoulmate! I miss you pricillayaulala! I miss you yifan! I guess this is all for the update.

I miss school very badly:(

2008-12-10T00:58:00.002+08:00

Mundane.
Workaday.

Soon, very soon, I am going to start working on my books.
Here I come!

I don't even know what I am thinking about nowadays...

2008-12-06T00:57:00.003+08:00

Passion for G.

Chances.
All gone.

2008-12-05T00:08:00.000+08:00

Better? Nothing gets better, its getting worst.
I never thought of giving up, I always have faith in myself and believe, believe that you would.
I have tried so hard, so hard. But what I got was all your bias-ness, your attitude, your disappointment in us and just you and what you think is right to do. Our feelings, you never give a thought of it.
Is winning that important? Is the amount of money you get more important than making results for us?
You push the blame to us, when everything we do is just what you said.
All I wish for is just a united team with a coach that gives support and care.

Sometimes, I don't even know why am I still learning, still trying to proof you wrong. Cause, you never notice it.

2008-12-04T00:16:00.001+08:00

I am bored.
Training and working today.

2008-12-03T00:34:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my first day of work. Its super tiring, cant sit down for 4 hours plus and had to walk around the whole restaurant to collect people's plates. Yes, I am working as a waitress. Although its really tiring, I think its an experience for me. The workers there are very nice to me, they taught me what to do and all. And I quickly adapted to the working system.

So today, I had training again. (5hours) Coach was rather disappointed with us at the beginning of the training. I guess everyone one of us didn't give our best and focus. But it got better after that. Did progressive serving and spiking. I realised I can spike balls now. And my service got better, got the balls over. Next is to swing my arm faster and serve hard and sharp. I was having complicated emotions. Happy, angry, upset. Happy cause I served the balls over. Angry cause my left thumb was painful whenever I dig the balls and the balls went to the wrong direction. Upset cause coach was disappointed. And nowadays I don't get to set balls so often:( Receiving balls are still a big problem.

I guess this is a lot of information about my training. I hope next training would be better.
I serve, I receive, I set, I spike.

Oh and one very amazing thing, whenever I look at the time, it is always example: 2.22p.m, 4.44p.m, 5.55p.m, 11.11p.m. Weird.

I was like a toddler, tried so hard to get a sweet high up on the table, but I fell hard to the ground and got nothing but the pain.

2008-11-30T16:31:00.002+08:00

Hello readers. I have been going out these few days, to buy things? And now, I am sick of going out already. I will be starting work on Monday, wish me good luck:D My brother is still in Taiwan, kind of miss him, cause the house is too quiet without him:O Talking about Taiwan, I am spending my new year in Taiwan! With my relatives there.
Heroes season 3 is very nice! I almost got my heart vomit out while watching it. Woohoo, Claire Bennet!

And I have a lot of lazy bugs on me, I am too lazy to do anything.
I want to pack my stuff.
I want to buy my new textbooks.
I want my study desk to be clean.
I want my cupboard to be tidy.
I want to get all my stuff before school reopen.
I want to have enough money.

I HAVE TO GET A LIFE!

Single. !KOCR I

2008-11-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

5 hours 20 minutes of training was awesome.
I sprained my left hand and I have a balloon on my left thumb area now.
I finally served the balls over. And I can set the balls without my left thumb.
LEFT THUMB! I WANT YOU BACK INTO YOUR POSITION AND SET!

Oh and I forgot to announce that I have got into 3E5!
(not trying to boast, later xavier say I arrogant again.)
A lot of things to do:
1. Unpack precious old notes and textbooks from my brother and sister(:
2. Buy new books.
3. Work.

And many more which are currently not in my brain schedule yet.

Yes, no more L. Its in my black list for now.

2008-11-26T00:34:00.004+08:00

25th november 2008.
25th november 2008.
25th november 2008.
25th november 2008.
25th november 2008.

I have found myself again.